Suddenly after 3 years I'm questioning myself now. My life here with my teammates has only been a lie. Well, has it? I didn't want to think that way at first but then at time soon passed. I realized that everyone else has their mini-clicks. Everyone else has their bestie that they can jut express their feelings too; will always have initiative to think about the bestie first. Well, NOT BEING IN ANY CLICKS? - CHECK 😔. NOT HAVING A BESTIE? - CHECK 😔. Gosh. It's worse that I thought. I'm a bitch aren't I? What is so wrong with me? The fact that I'm not pretty enough like the others to get a boyfriend? I know I'm not that perfect but I find sometimes that people never gave me the second chance to change their first impressions on me. I've always been the crazy girl but is that not enough for you guys. I'm really confused at myself for not knowing what my passing mark is to pass my social status and friendships exam. Can anyone help me? And even though I'm writing this. I know no one would be reading and that sooner or later, I'm just going to be another faint memory.